MY "POEM"~...A TRY^^

its cruel..
for letting me to witness the scenes that she and you laughing and looking into each other eyes happily..
you should'nt let me to be there...
should just ask me go away..
i wanted to go away..
but my legs cant even moved by then..
heart was throb in pieces..
can hardly move the whole body..
when i heard you telling me that you love her..
i dint know that..
i thought i have secured some places in ur heart..
but i guess it doesnt seem so..

i asked who am i to you?
and you are so cruel..
you lookeed into my eyes and assured me that i am just a friend..
you smiled..without knowing my feeling to you..

i wanted to shout out and let you know that i dont want to be just friend!
but however ..that little voice never been spoken out..
im speechless whenever i want to say it out..
its like a torn inside me..
struggling to be released from the long kept secret...

seeing you hapy with her..
i have some kind of relieves and sadness..
relieve for me to know you true feeling toward me..
sad for me to know the truth that the person is not me..

but still,
as i never say out the feeling toward you...
thus i guess i cant still be with you even as afriend..
liking you without you knowledging it..
get jeolous without you noticing it..
be by you sides whenever you are sad and unhappy..

its enough..
i will not ask for more..
let me be by your sides just like that..
its enough..