my world.....

its 3 days more..
yet,
i am still infront of this pc writing this,
what??
im myself not sure what is this feeling..
its some kind of emptiness
his birthday is around the corner,
more precisely,
it is 3 more days.

i remember....
we used to celebrate the birthday together...not sure whether he remember that,
really wanted to know whether he really remember he very moment or not...
sometimes,
no...
its everytime,
the images of the moments and all the moments we've been together comes clear infront of the eyes..............

its about this times,
that we have always used to spent time together..
and now...
you ARE GONE..
LEFT ME LONELY..
every night,
it is about this times,,
i cant resist my own self from typing those messages and sent it to u..
and most of the times,
i have tried hard to stopped myself from being so foolish...

sometimes i really hate myself..
why cant i be more strong...
to endure all the times without you...
to forget you little by little..
the process..

is unbearable..

how are you now??
are you happy with your life now??


your birthday is 3 days more..
i wont send you any message anymore..
i wont call you either..
as i really wont need to already..

time pass by and it will bring my happiness back in no time..
hope you too..

here..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.......