A Day with Boredom

Today is Sunday..

and sadly it is a boring Sunday, 

were finding people on Gtalk to chat with and on and on, 

what else can i do?

roomate is sleeping..

i am writing blog..

wuhhooo..

lazy to read and revise on books..

is going to have test on tuesday..

yet...

dont know what i am going to do now..

i know what am i suppose to do..

but i dont want to do, to be more specific..

where to settle myself in the "jungle"

i need not to be over care about all those things.

but a boring sunday make it worse..

wuuhoo..

Sunday, i were supposed to be at the beach, 

hearing the waves hitting the floor of the beach,

looking up into the sky seeing birds flown by, 

wearing jumpsuit sitting on the sand..

fingers moving round and round writing on the sand underneath me...

waiting for the sunset behind the mountain, 

i see through my sunscreen spectacles..

the reflection of the sun on the sea water..

gradually fades until night falls.

how nice it would be if i were to be in that environment right now..

what a SaD and Boring Sunday..

sometimes ,something could never change

yes, as the title suggests.
sometimes ,something will never change, no matter how much you want it to change...

since i was in primary school,
i was not a good friend maker,
all the kids think that i am difficult to be approached,
and yet, some of them said
im "easy" to be GOOD friend with,
given the condition that U approach me first,
whatsoever.....the point is,
 i still feel that i am unapproachable,
even until now,
i am still not the one holding the title of "Friendly"..


Its not that i dont want or dont need to have plenty of friends around me,
its just that......
im shy, im self-centered, i am not kind of person that will approach some1 without any topic,

now, right now,
i feel like am being abandoned and neglected,
nothing i did that can change the fact.,
"that there is close door into the pathway, "
no space for me to slip in anyway at all,
as i said, sometimes, something could never change...

am i a loner?
no i am not, i wish to join any1 at all in any occasion at all,
but when you are invited, there it goes,
sometimes, something could never change....

i just need to get a little bit stronger...