我们好像在哪见过， its make me think of you...

Its a blog that have been forgotten for so long now. just like the way we are forgotten along with the time.

我们好像在哪见过，its a song that makes me think of you...

How have you been?
Where are you now.. are you doing fine?
What have u been doing for these past years that we dint contact each other?

Those are the words that i have been wanting to ask you ..


I have been searching for you all along, but are unable to reach you...
It been so sad that we have lost contact..

Are we ever going to meet each other again?




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当下的。。感受。。

会不会，有时候， 感觉有点 寂寞。。。
就是有那么的一天， roomate就是 不在。。
一个人， 有很多时间一个人。。想这想那的。

就那么时候，刮来清凉的风。。就因刚刚冲洗的我， 感觉特别的清爽。。
黑色的天 这时 也下起了毛毛雨。。

感觉对的时候， 开几首 适合的歌听听， 那个感觉 是很旧没有感受到的。。

就是。 喜欢。 下雨天的时候， 想起往事， 原来， 也是个享受。。

当时的 寂寞 也变的 很是一个味道。=）

11/11/11

Today is a day with plenty of number 1, because of that then I think it would have be a good day,
a lucky day maybe?
MY life up untill would be a total flat..

I have nothing to write on this blog but yet i wish to write..
Hmm.. Let me think..
oh yeah..I am selected to become one of the usher in One World Upcoming Event.
Yeah, I have been selected, just being informed last night.. dont really know how they actually picked as I thought my application have long been rejected since I had applied long time ago and no news come back to me. Maybe I am just not up to their qualifcation I thought as they need pretty girls. Fuuh... It actually lowered my self-esteem a little bit, but other than that, it was nothing as I am not big pretty faces existing in this world and I do not need my face to make a living. (Hope So, if not I will be miserable, muahahaha)

However, last night was out of expectations, a message fell into the friend's( A friend who has been selected asa one of the usher) phone last night asking whether I am still available.

I actually dont really need the money but I guess just out of curiousity and maybe just to get back my self esteem I actually agreed to take on the job.

Well, tommorrow(Saturday) is the day, I have no clues of what the event is all about, what it will look like, how big it will be or whatever about it, and also to tell you the truth, I'd never plan to get to know what it is all about, muahaha.. I am going there just to have fun and to get my pay.

A story I Wish TO tell

There is a girl, named Eva.



She is a girl with independent, rocklike characters; have many sterling qualities.
She is always confident, strong willed and calm.



But on the dark side, she is a pessimistic person, and was so fragile that her heart will crumble into peices anytime if it were touched on any of the friendship, family-ship, or boyfriend-ship. she values all those relationship alot- always.



She is a Capricorn, as what was predicted:
The Capricorn is the strong friend, they will always be there to help, they are very sympathetic, caring and helpful to a friend in need. A Capricorn will get someone back on their feet again with a steady plan for success and for all this, they expect nothing in return. The Capricorn friend is deep and mysterious and full of intrigue, there always seems to be something going on in their mind.


Yes, she is a strong friend, and values them alot, and once a Capricorn heart is damaged, it could never be repaired.


She was as told by the predictions, she looks strong from the outside, but fragile from the inside. Not many knows that, and everyone tends to treat her like:" she will be just alright on her own." that, " She does not need bestie, as she is tough enough on her own." , and " she is cool, not dare enough to be friend with her". All these words, who would have know that it actually hurts her very much.


Those words, make her no "bestie" as in best best friend, as she was always left alone to do things on her own. The only way out was to rely on her ownself, everything that she needed, she would just get it done by herself, she did not have best friends to share with all her problems and happiness,gradually, she grew apart from the people around her surroundings, she was not even invited to join a girl group' trips.


She has a Boyfriend, a boyfriend ease the sadness in her heart abit, so that her heart still hanging there. But, it is not enough for her heart to hang in there much longer. She needs friends that she can value and the friends that could value her as much as she did.


She tried to give out herself, but it seems that nobody have seen the true her yet; her kindness and her willingness to be their best friend, her willingness to sacrify just for her friends, she could be the best friend a perso ever have if only someone could see the inner, true her.

A Day with Boredom

Today is Sunday..

and sadly it is a boring Sunday, 

were finding people on Gtalk to chat with and on and on, 

what else can i do?

roomate is sleeping..

i am writing blog..

wuhhooo..

lazy to read and revise on books..

is going to have test on tuesday..

yet...

dont know what i am going to do now..

i know what am i suppose to do..

but i dont want to do, to be more specific..

where to settle myself in the "jungle"

i need not to be over care about all those things.

but a boring sunday make it worse..

wuuhoo..

Sunday, i were supposed to be at the beach, 

hearing the waves hitting the floor of the beach,

looking up into the sky seeing birds flown by, 

wearing jumpsuit sitting on the sand..

fingers moving round and round writing on the sand underneath me...

waiting for the sunset behind the mountain, 

i see through my sunscreen spectacles..

the reflection of the sun on the sea water..

gradually fades until night falls.

how nice it would be if i were to be in that environment right now..

what a SaD and Boring Sunday..

sometimes ,something could never change

yes, as the title suggests.
sometimes ,something will never change, no matter how much you want it to change...

since i was in primary school,
i was not a good friend maker,
all the kids think that i am difficult to be approached,
and yet, some of them said
im "easy" to be GOOD friend with,
given the condition that U approach me first,
whatsoever.....the point is,
 i still feel that i am unapproachable,
even until now,
i am still not the one holding the title of "Friendly"..


Its not that i dont want or dont need to have plenty of friends around me,
its just that......
im shy, im self-centered, i am not kind of person that will approach some1 without any topic,

now, right now,
i feel like am being abandoned and neglected,
nothing i did that can change the fact.,
"that there is close door into the pathway, "
no space for me to slip in anyway at all,
as i said, sometimes, something could never change...

am i a loner?
no i am not, i wish to join any1 at all in any occasion at all,
but when you are invited, there it goes,
sometimes, something could never change....

i just need to get a little bit stronger...

我喜欢

我喜欢
在没有人的地方
自己呆着

我喜欢
 在很多人的地方
嘻嘻哈哈的笑  把一切烦恼都抛在后头

我喜欢
大家对我的关心， 的爱护

我很想
回到过去找回原来的自己
那天真可爱的
无邪的
童年往事

我很想
看到不同的世界
接触不同的人物

我很想。。。。
我很想。。。。
我很想。。。。
很想。。。。。
想。。。。。。

自由自在。。