Your Birthdate: December 30

You are certain and confident when you choose to love someone. Even though your romantic choices may be unconventional - you stand behind them. Your friends never know you as well as a romantic partner does. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 6 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 6 You are most compatible with people born on the 3rd, 12th, 21st, and 30th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

HAIZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!11TIRED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haizzzzzzzz.....
it terribly tired a!!!!!

i have been reading the icis text from the end of the last paper..
but it doest seems to finish yet!!!!

really cannot go in already those software...hardware....virus...worm...trojan...whatever..
crazy!!!!
all are stupid words!!!
its too amany...
how am i going to memorise all those..
T.T
this exam is terribly making me fatigue...tired...
need a EXTERNAL HARD DISK!!!
cannot go in already...
huhu...
now blooging..
am soory(saying to myself)
as i really cannot take it anymore...

ah/...thinking about it...
i still have to juggle between thinknig skills and icis sommore..................................
just by thinking about it, i wana get sick!!!!

friends out there....
please give me some support..
i..
i.............
i,,..............................
think amgoing to be crazy.....
and friend out there..
utpians..
who are having the same fate as me...

juz one word!!!!!!!
BE STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUHUHUHUHUHH...HAHAHAHAHHA....

CRAZY!
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hmhm...y izit half??
pretending to me mystery??
haha...maybe..
guess how i look like...
even my fren i dont see long time ..

i have changed somehow ...maybe due to my hair..growing long..
never try to keep that long b4..
haha...

MY "POEM"~...A TRY^^

its cruel..
for letting me to witness the scenes that she and you laughing and looking into each other eyes happily..
you should'nt let me to be there...
should just ask me go away..
i wanted to go away..
but my legs cant even moved by then..
heart was throb in pieces..
can hardly move the whole body..
when i heard you telling me that you love her..
i dint know that..
i thought i have secured some places in ur heart..
but i guess it doesnt seem so..

i asked who am i to you?
and you are so cruel..
you lookeed into my eyes and assured me that i am just a friend..
you smiled..without knowing my feeling to you..

i wanted to shout out and let you know that i dont want to be just friend!
but however ..that little voice never been spoken out..
im speechless whenever i want to say it out..
its like a torn inside me..
struggling to be released from the long kept secret...

seeing you hapy with her..
i have some kind of relieves and sadness..
relieve for me to know you true feeling toward me..
sad for me to know the truth that the person is not me..

but still,
as i never say out the feeling toward you...
thus i guess i cant still be with you even as afriend..
liking you without you knowledging it..
get jeolous without you noticing it..
be by you sides whenever you are sad and unhappy..

its enough..
i will not ask for more..
let me be by your sides just like that..
its enough..

my world.....

its 3 days more..
yet,
i am still infront of this pc writing this,
what??
im myself not sure what is this feeling..
its some kind of emptiness
his birthday is around the corner,
more precisely,
it is 3 more days.

i remember....
we used to celebrate the birthday together...not sure whether he remember that,
really wanted to know whether he really remember he very moment or not...
sometimes,
no...
its everytime,
the images of the moments and all the moments we've been together comes clear infront of the eyes..............

its about this times,
that we have always used to spent time together..
and now...
you ARE GONE..
LEFT ME LONELY..
every night,
it is about this times,,
i cant resist my own self from typing those messages and sent it to u..
and most of the times,
i have tried hard to stopped myself from being so foolish...

sometimes i really hate myself..
why cant i be more strong...
to endure all the times without you...
to forget you little by little..
the process..

is unbearable..

how are you now??
are you happy with your life now??


your birthday is 3 days more..
i wont send you any message anymore..
i wont call you either..
as i really wont need to already..

time pass by and it will bring my happiness back in no time..
hope you too..

here..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.......

i cant find to install the chinese version languegue packs to install in computer.
thus, i thk i will juz write in english then..
what should i said..juz let say last evening ler..
i have this strange fren who are so independence and cant be compared anymore...
he sudenlly said wanted to go for a walk at lumut...juz like that...want go then go..
oke...actually my attitude oso like that ..
somekind of..
cuz whn id want that thing then i want..

just because of im having a real tense life over here..
so i said lets go..
anywher from utp..
ish!!! its near the final exam..
i had become more uncontrolled of my ownself ..charm lor..
actually..seeing down into his little soul..
that little soul have a lot of bitter past..
maybe,,,, duno...people dont even take me as a friend who he appreciate..(he said that i was not suppose to come along wor...dint asked me pun come pun!!! oke i said!!!..haiz really lar...actually got a bit angry oke...terrible!!!YALA NEXT TIME DUWAN FOLLOW LAR!!!!!)
but yesterday was out of the mercy and the will to accompany him..
or accompanying my other girl fren lor,,,..(in other word)

the day before,
we had planned to go to ipoh,
and actually i dint lied...i was looking forward to it as i really wanted to go for the singing in kbox..
imagining holding the mic all to my own..
but lightning strike and rained...(i mean in my heart).. was hAS HAPPENED?
two of the friends suddenlly called me and told me that they are unable to go with us.. not only that, still asking me to tell a lie...i wont!!!never!!! a lie that i dint have to tell...y sud i??
its not any wrong or any problem if we tell the truth..
so i told the truth..

what happened next make me dropped a few little tears..
after ending that call
my heart cant hold it anymore
the tears are unable to hold back n then juz keep flowing out like that...
"i am so sorry..
i duno that i will be like that..sorry"
after some times..it finally stop..
i get back on desk and studied for the moral as we are having moral exam the day AFTER..
i really dont like when hurting people..
i kkep telling him am so sorry...that i make such amess..
but actually its not my fault i knw it...
telling the truth is never is a wrong.. but i juz cant stand people get hurt or trouble when i am telling the truth..

thking of the life here..
its really different..
really want to find a hook to hook on...
juz a big tree that allow me to even gain some shatter underneath...

i have tried hard to be independence AND I AM SURE I AM..IN MANY THINGS..
but somtimes there are some places in my heart that telling me..'go fond some big tree and rest for a while""regain ur energy and the moved on"..

what a bout writing this???
well, i thk i was just really boring until cant be said anymore...
hey!!really!!1
i actually hate writing..
i would skip any class if i were told that there will be essay writing in the class...
but yet...
here i am..
writing anonymously..
what have i said??
boring??
yea...i have been her for the past 6 months..
now alrealy towards the end of the semester..
well.
im not sure what have i done here..hahakkaka..
this place... quite like a prison leh/...i have juz went out of here juz for twice i thk...
not that cant go out...my fren every sunday went out but i dint follow..
let u guess it y??
..................................................
honestly.,,
im not enjoying my life as i used to be as in my secondary school..
we have alwaz been very enjoyed life even though with all the bundle of homeworks..
really missed those days..
hehe/...whatever lar...
later going back and can meet ady..
we are going vacations ..
plain to go 7 of us..
4 boys...3 girls..
best friends forever!!!
muackssss!!!!love u all!!!^^

hello!!!eveyone...althought maybe nobody..
this the first time i posted my blog,,, writing...
since many of my friends are all using the blogs and post everything and everything on the net..
i tot i would like to try it too.
hey, whatever or soever, i myself not even sure whether this is correct or worth it..
maybe, just maybe that i will gain something from here but will i really??

i dint tell any of my friends that i am having my own blog now..
cuz i tot i am juz started..and maybe wont even laz long... since i knw myself really well thus ithk i wont really laz long...

ok!!for a starter.. i thk that all iwould really write this very particular time...!!!c u later!!^^